Thanks, now I really have a complex.

I stared at that last paragraph for a long time. If it's any consolation I've felt the same way. You feel like your Al Pacino in Scarface - "Is this it...is this what I've been working for." I guess at the end of the day you have to be thankful for what you have, and take comfort in the knowledge that your passion will find you.

You should never put time tables on the goals you wish to accomplish in life. Besides, the priority of our goals in life change over time. Am I starting to sound like a fortune cookie yet?

At about my mid-thirtys I experianced the same existintial angst. I asked a friend about it and he said that it I should go out and buy something! It was his contention that all of us after reaching adulthood sort of plane off and then live from one major purchase to the next. A new home, new car, a really phat vacation, furs, jewelry, whatever I suppose. I'm not making light of your emotions here either. This guy was serious and I'm not so sure he was wrong.